Cheeeessss!!
More about the many many feelings I have for that song later.
♥
Late night creeper, Beauty Seeker. LegacyLoveColorCreationVirtueVacationEssenceElevation.
I was your instrumental once
horns round philadelphia suns
808s pulsating in pavement
I prompted those adlibs
I taught you how to ride a beat
sampled my dimple
looped it around your index
and pressed play
I hid inspiration
in the dead of autumns crunch
beneath black soles
for you to find
before you removed your tims
for me to rub
snare drum thumbs
into the arch of your foot
My grandmother
will never understand
the music we love in
she will however, recognize
the rhythm in our steps
the bass in my gaze
steady
trying to synthesize with
my acoustic guitar of a heart
with my eyelids like strings
plucked open with each
strum of your fingers
on the small of my back
Each silence a raindrop
gaining momentum
and multiplying into
a symphony splashing,
reverberating
on my tender tenor eardrums
your baritone roams the aqueduct
behind my eyes
and when I cry
it is not for loss
I am only flesh
just limbs
and extremities clamoring
scratched throat
swollen eyes
standing
pleading
for you to see me
I am only this flesh
The music in my walk
will never play through speakers
The melody in my voice
can not be re-mastered
I am only these bones
not drumsticks to beat
the heart into your lyrics
I am only this flesh
A back alley masterpiece
a street scene
wind caught
in a young woman's strands
a man cleaning
the dirt from his
childs hands
Open mouthed laughter
and the decaying molars
in the back
The first flower
to open on the first
day of spring
I am all of these
and the colors in between
I am not an EP
not a mixtape
I am just flesh
All of the things you
wont see with your ears open
and your eyes down
head bobbing
I just wish
you were
a visual learner
I can not love a
man who looks like me because
well, I mean...because
Day ??
I am leaving
it is in my way
I am my fathers daughter
I am leaving
it is in my way
My mothers firstborn
ushered me with phantom hands
they still linger
on my back
I feel the pressure there sometimes
I am leaving
it is in my way
my steps are always urgent
my feet lead me
as if I always have somewhere to be
I can only stand still
in constant motion
Again what Day is it??
I am letting you go
although I never had you
I seem unable to comprehend
these days
limited concepts of human interaction
I get ahead of myself
like too hard
too fast
because ive known
the hollow of
missing emotion
Im just trying to fill
my heart with as much
as I can find
as quickly as possible
That is an ugly place
Day 5:
Born
the philosopher
of the heavens
I fall in love daily
smile too much
and laugh too loudly
I am still uncomfortable
in my body
Born
the philosopher
of the heavens
I fall in love daily
its always one sided
smile too much
with my big big nose
and laugh too loudly
with my big big mouth
I am still uncomfortable
in my body
Day 6:
I.
Remember the day
your father took your hand
and said,
in a language
with no place on his tongue
'look at the night sky
endless and full'
You're eyes
as wide as galaxies
shed vanity and tears
engulfed in guilt
for sharing the same
universe as that sky
II.
You have one dimple
and a sharp tongue
currently stained
by blackberry
with a cheeky smile
you steal kisses
from boys who
are'nt sure why
they like you
III.
Head a mass
of kinks
inside of it
all of your screws
are not tight;
Your aunt burns
your forehead
trynna straighten
the wrong type of kink
IIII.
Everyday I miss conception
by seconds
I am one backspace away
from existence on most
screenwriters keyboards
It has been like this
since I was born
It will not be this way
when I die